overdue

this is for juls.
well, for me too.

so, its over.
i'm a high school graduate.
fine-freaking-ly.

so now its just a matter of waiting slash trusting.
i should probably put more emphasis on the trusting part.
its really, really hard for me to just let go and "let God." (forgive the cliche)
i just have to trust that God has this under control.

its going to be so weird when i'm finally on this trip. its like... i've been getting ready for this for a year, and its finally coming up. next week. weeeeeeeeeeird. its going to be weird to be so far away from my family and friends, and bed. i love my bed. its the greatest. i love my room. i love my life right now. its really weird that its about to change totally.

why is it that once life gets good, it changes? whenever i'm finally conent with my life, everything rearranges?
don't get me wrong, i'm SO excited about this trip, and i'm GLAD that THIS change is coming. i'm just pondering here.

last year, i would've LOVED for this kind of change. i was miserable. but things just kept trudging along.

i'm listening to rainy day music. i'm in a rainy day mood. haha its Edward whether!! hahaha... ok. i'm sorry...

funny story- my dad is reading twilight, and he LIKES it. hahaha! i love my dad <3